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Sunday, August 29, 2004

Just ended MY chapter with The Hour Glass Exhibition. ABout 5 Hours ago. here here i am in front of My PC at 1.30am , later I have to go to work at 7pm. Exhasted. Tell u more when i have time.

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Thursday, August 19, 2004

Finally found a song that I have been search for a long long time!

Few weeks ago, I went to jurong east to shop for my graduation clothes and I came across a blind man who sung this song while playing the guitar. A lot of ppl surrounded him and stunned , really stunned lor, is like they really immerse in this beautiful sad song with his fantastic voice. People just started to come forward to drop their appreciation on the guitar coverbag. When I heard the song, it immediately drawn me to a feeling beyond words. A vocal that strike into my heart and tears welled up in my eyes before I know it!!!! In that instant moment, I am lonely in this place and nobody is around me, no audience, no passerby, no buses, no mrt, no noise street and cars, no blind guitarman..Just the music and me. I guess everybody feel this way as their eyes told them so.
Where is this Legendary blindman came from ? I never heard his voice anywhere before but I can feel that he sung from his heart.
When windows to the soul can't be open, the windows from the heart will . If he is not blind , he must be a famous singer. Maybe god jealous of his gift of vocal, or maybe god is fair, they took away something else in exchange of his beautiful voice.

The song is called "Ji Shi Ben" (Journal) .There are 2 singers for this song, the original singer is Xiao GAng. The cover version is sing by kelly Chen. I prefer the latter if I got to choose between the two but I just can't get the feeling from this song like the another day when I hear this song again.... overall, I prefer the blindman ,coz it is real and down to earth.

《记事本》

翻开随身携带的记事本
写着许多事都是关于你
你讨厌被冷落
习惯被守候
寂寞才找我
我看见自己写下的心情
把自己放在卑微的后头
等你等太久
想你泪会流
而幸福快乐是什么
爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好
像上瘾的毒药
它反复骗着我
爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
矛盾心里总是强求
劝自己要放手
闭上眼让你走
烧掉日记重新来过
重新来过

Maybe we are too fortunate, because we have a pair of eyes that can let us see this beautiful earth, colourful rainbows..but too often, we took our precious for granted when we choose to believe in what we see and influence in what we thoughts or when we judge people too quickly with our vision. We polluted our mind and our senses. Hence, we turned ugly, imprefection in our voices, our character, pretentious smile.....
should we one day, try to slow down and open the eyes in our heart, leave some place for some emotion and feeling and sympathy to our raw vision from our eyes? Perhaps, we can sing like the blindman too....

Anonymous scribbled this at 7:49 AM...

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Recently, I listen to a song called "Adagio" by Lara Fabian. IT SIMPLY MELTS YR HEART!!!!! (recommended by my brother--eh..dun know that he can be so emotional lei..)
LOve this song and I keep on replay till i can sing!

The lyric ..

Ah…I don’t know where to find you
I don’t know how to reach you
I hear your voice in the wind
I feel you under my skin
Within my heart and my soul
I'll wait for you
Adagio
All of these nights without you
All of my dreams surround you
I see and I touch your face
I fall into your embrace
When the time is right, I know
You'll be in my arms
Adagio

I close my eyes and I find a way
No need for me to pray
I’ve walked so far
I've fought so hard
Nothing more to explain
I know all that remains
Is a piano that plays I
f you know where to find me
If you know how to reach me
Before this light fades away
Before I run out of faith
Be the only man to say
That you'll hear my heart
That you'll give your life
Forever you'll stay…
Oh…Don't let this light fade away

No, no, no, no, no, no

Don't let me run out of faith
Be the only man to say
That you believe, make me believe
You won't let go
Adagio…

Anonymous scribbled this at 8:27 AM...

Few days ago, I get so much problem with my computer..... shut me dw suddenly, gives me error meg every 5 mins and I am sick of it .Instead of taking HP ppl advices to change a ram memory (yeah yeah, the ram and their gd idea which cost 300 ++ bucks), I DIY the solution. The problem is : the problem lies on the corrupted system. Hence, I backup all my files and do a system recovery, which end up that my connection setting and my anti-virus software..gone. Everything begin in from ABC again, hence, i set up my connection with pacific and my brother give me a copy of his Mc Afee software. Dun use the Norton, it takes up space and have expire date.

Now, my computer is back to normal , my pc thanks me , my bank a/c thanks me .
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Anonymous scribbled this at 7:17 AM...

Friday, August 13, 2004

" My memory of NYP in C fold" proudly done by kelly, bernice and myself. Isn't it lovely?

Anonymous scribbled this at 11:00 AM...

Down to the memory lane 2 years ago, in the molecular biology practical. While waiting for the result of the experiment, Kelly , bernice and I took a C fold paper and began to draw on it, expressing our creativity in this boring boring lab practical. Hope they had seen this, I have not throw away........ This had bring a smile to my face.

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:52 AM...

I hate this screen that happens went I log on to computer, telling me that they are going to dump something. And then count down to 100 which the computer will restart again. So, one day I am not going to be annoyed by this msg, When this happens I tell myself " yahoo! it is a 100 secs tea break time, I better rest my eyes lst!!!!!!!"

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:52 AM...

Today is friday the 13th. No wonder.

I went for the interview at 3.30pm today and I am late for 10 minutes. (the research centre is so hard to find!!!!!!!!) Reached the place, I forget to call the person in charge to take me to the meeting room, so she had to come out from the meeting room and chase after me. Inside the room, there is one Dr (in his late forties) and a young lady like to stare up and down at me. The administrator,esther, took me to the meeting. I exhibited all my cert on the table. The diploma cert have a date big big 1 "26th May 2004" The lst question she asked me is "So, when did u graduated?" ........ -_- '' Wow, a good question!

Approaching the end of the interview, u guess what? Here comes the most exciting part : MY PHONE RING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Esther's talk was interupted by the human technology. The panel of interviewers are obliviously been given a bad impression of me. Good....here goes my potential "real" job liao. I don't think they will want a rude gal like me.If they really call me back for the 2nd interview, god BLESS ! That will be a miracle! I pray...I really like the job environment and the job scope!!

There is always something happens in my interviews. It always happen and now I am developing a interview -phobic.

Another bad news: My PC is a bit siao. Error Beeping me when I turn on the computer , CAN't START! hence, not be able to blog these
At the midst of using the pc, it give a irritating msg (see above) and shut down my computer automaticately!!!!!! Call up the HP, and they say that my warranty had expired so if I want their man to come down to change my ram. And claimed my system had conrupted.It gonna charge me $90 plus $278 for the ram. I got the shock out of my life!!!!!!! Now the pc is back at her good mood, and I had juz backup my files. Going to do a recovery to my pc to the original setting using the set of recovery cd.

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:19 AM...

Sunday, August 08, 2004

Graduation just passed 5 days. Life goes on after graduation, life don't really neither get better or worst. It's still the same bright morning after that sweet and peaceful sleep after the graduation. I am still a Full-time, commited , choosy, hardworking, and determined job hunter expertise. I got handful of jobs in my hand and I don't know who to work with. hAiz..
Should HAve not told that manager that I am going to further my studies in the next few years. or else I have that job!!!!!! A job that I estimated that I could command a starting fat paycheque
of basic $1600 plus commission and incentive not included.

Manager : Where do u see yourself in the next few years? (This manager have this eagar look in his face that he is going to hire me if I can answer this Q in his most favorable reply)
Me: I am going for further studies in XXX university in XXXXXX XXXXX degree (manager had this look @@ in his face)
MAnager : (Disappointed looks.) Smile coyly and shake his head for 5 second of momentary silence and finally reply "haiz...I dun understand y most of the i had interviewed wanted to further their studies? I mean ....What is the meaning of studying so much when u come out and work, most of the knowledge u learn in sch dun utilise. I mean .. i mean.. I graduated from XXX university and I dun use 90 % or more of the thing I learnt in school when I come out and work. Do u know that I have the opportunity to take up a master degree but I reject it becoz I know it is useless. (me thinking : use yr brain , we know that la, but we just need that stupid cert to get our pathetic resume a worth of consideration from employer, singapore is a cert-based country where most of them will say no cert no tok)

me : mAybe for self -satisfaction .......
The Q and A goes on ....................
well, I know I will not get hire becoz of the question . As a biomedical science product specialist, u grow with the company, they make effort and spent time to train u to become a super "salesman" and which u will able to talk intellectly with the potential clients range from professor , director, manager , PhD, master ,bachelor,technician, doctors..........You are the only 1 who have the best knowledge about the products that u are going to market and the company depend on you for it. I can understand the manager's intention. If he hires me, and i had trained to be a expert/specialist on their products, i will be their best elites who can represent their company. One day, i break the news "hey, i earned enough $$$, i can go to XXX uni liao, I am given u a month advance tender resignation, I am so happy, r u happy abt my further endearment?" Bullshit crap, how can he be happy? I breaks his heart! Who is going to handle the portfolio of those clients that I had clutched? I am solely responsible for the technical aspect of the products and i got to get down to the mud and handle solve the problems of the products because I am the one who build the close relationship for the client and the company, I had the client's trust and they ensured that I am the one who knows their necessaries. When clients know that I am going to dump the responsibilities , the company will be in deep shit trouble.becoz I knows the product more than anyone.

I am going to sleep.

Anonymous scribbled this at 2:06 PM...

Heey Look here, yeah !!! i got my cert (-_-)'' .. 3 years of hard work and preserverance, to exchange this piece of certificate. To me, This cert is juz a passport to an application for a degree cert (again...)

Anonymous scribbled this at 1:43 PM...

Took this pic during the graduation. Fondly remember this beautiful school 4ever....

Anonymous scribbled this at 1:37 PM...

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

The boys table behind mine

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:50 AM...

Rongwei birthday party (guitar club)

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:48 AM...

left is bernice, left is kelly. At guifeng house plays mad woman just escape from hougang chalet. We just can't get enough of the snake and hang over our necks and dance and sing "chi chi pong pong, ni dong bu dong.." Ok. enough.

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:46 AM...

In the lab ...during year 1 (is it?)

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:39 AM...

another shot

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:37 AM...

mb 0102 outside lab

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:34 AM...

gd old mb o1o2 come back

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:33 AM...

boo!

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:31 AM...

Graduation Worth a Fireworks celebration for me .. Only see in the picture

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:28 AM...

Vitamin C ------ Graduation Song

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change,
Keep on thinking things will always be the same.
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back,
no more hanging out cuz were on a different track
and if you, got something that ya need to say,
you better say it right now cuz you don't have another day

Cuz we're moving on and we cant slow down
these memories are playing like a film without sound
and I keep thinking of that night in June,
I didnt know much of love but it came too soon.
And there was me and you and we got real blue,
stay at home talking on the telephone,
with me, we'd get so excited and we'd get so scared,
laughing at ourselfs thinking lifes not fair...
And this is how it feels...

CHORUS
As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
From whatever,
We will still be Friends Forever...

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money,
when we look back now will that joke still be funny?,
will we still remember everything we learned in school,
still be trying to break every single rule?
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that its not goodbye,
Keep on thinkin its a time to fly,
And this is how it feels...

CHORUS
la, la, la, la... yeah, yeah ... la, la, la, la
We will still be, Friends Forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow? (somehow)
I guess I thought that this would never end,
AND SUDDENLY IT'S LIKE WE'RE WOMEN AND MEN
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Or will these memories fade when I leave this town?,
I keep, I keep thinking that its not goodbye
Keep on thinking its a time to fly...

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:13 AM...

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

love and hatred separates by a fine line

Anonymous scribbled this at 12:05 PM...

Everything Happens For A Reason
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there ... to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.
You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower or heart.
Everything happens for a reason.
Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck.
Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul.
Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet affect your life.
The successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from.
In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart to.
If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.
Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create your own life and then go out and live it.
posted by Anonymous @ 9:43 AM 0 comments
Friday, July 30, 2004

we live in a sociaty where making money and becoming famous is seen as the ultimate success. We are told that if we study hard, get good grades, earn awards and get recognized , we will be happy. Yet, most of the time we feel unsatisfied when we follow the path we "should" follow.Today, do exactly what you love! nothing will give your life more meaning than doing what you want to do, whether that is leaving public school to pursue your love of dance or be a freelance street painterremeber , the journey to happiness won't always be easy becasue it may going against your parent's hopes, or it may mean pursuing something that isn't seen as "valuable" by the sociaty. Keep in mind the famous words of Robert Frost : I took the (road) less traveled by/And that has made all the difference" You are the only person wo knows what will make you fulfilled , so follow your unique path .

Anonymous scribbled this at 11:59 AM...

最初的梦想
FAn Wei qi " 最初的梦想"

* 如果骄傲没被现实大海冷冷海啸
又怎回头的要有多努力才走得到远方
如果梦想不曾坠落悬崖前据一方
又怎会晓得执着的人也有隐形翅膀
把眼泪装在心上会看出勇敢的话
可以在疲惫的时光闭上眼睛闻到一种芬芳
就像好好睡了一夜直到天亮
有人边吵着又哼着歌用着轻快的步伐
沮丧时总会明显感到孤独的重量
我渴望懂得的人给些温暖借个肩膀
很放心一路上我们的默契那么长
穿过风又绕个弯心海仍旧像往常一样

*# 最初的梦想紧握在手上
最想要去的地方怎能在半路就分合
最初的梦想绝对会到达实现了整个渴望
才能算到过了天堂

# The song is about to have the courage to pursue your original dreams. It seems that rarely in the market out there (this song composing market is too suffocated with love song (*_* ), here I come across this song with a meaningful lyric that is so encouraging, comes with a powerful vocal by Fan wei qi , and a nice original music. Worth 5/5!

Anonymous scribbled this at 11:54 AM...

my good old group 2 in mb0102

Anonymous scribbled this at 11:36 AM...

Someone email me this message 2day.How true is it. I am deeply impacted. "Everyday when you return from your school, whether or not it is from a secondary school, a junior collage, a polytechnic, or ITE, you would probably think that school sucks. All that work and torture under your lecturer's or teacher's homework or assignments, or tutorials... But think about this, i mean really think. All the time spent with your classmates, all the laughter, sorrows, and happiness of knowing that your friends are there in your class. Now imagine them gone, perhaps part of them or even all of them. You may not realise it, but when advancing into the next level of education, it is inevitable that some friends will be parting with you. What is all this you ask yourself, what I ask is of you to think, for those who received this mail, what do those people who were once or were still your classmates and friends meant to you. Anyone who has at least finished their o levels and has graduated from respective schools would know the feeling of parting with your classmates and friends. Not knowing when you still see them again. Perhaps the next day, the next week, month, years, or even decade. Perhaps one day, you would realised how bitter sweet those memories were, the fun you had with your classmates and friends. That is why ever so often when you asked someone which is the most fond memories they had in their years in education, they would often have that sadness in their eyes, but yet, they smile briefly. It's the memories of their school friends. Those unforgettable years of laughter and happiness in school. Each classmate had suffered under the same stresses in school. The teachers, whether they are kind or extremely strict. So treasure your schooling days, don't complain, because you never know when you will miss them dearly. And perhaps, shed a tear for those treasured times in your youth. ~~If this touches your heart, and reminded you of those classmates who brought happiness, laughter, colour to your life, you can pass it on, let your classmates know that although all these years, whether short or long, you still have not forgotten them.~~Let those whom are weak and tormented in the spirit find strength in this letter, knowing that someone still remembers them, and care for them. No matter the circumstances.

My view: When I had grown up, I realised that life is cruel and down to earth because we are always got to move on to the next level no matter what have you got now or how comfortable and contented you are now. Life is like many chapters in a book. Every chapter close is another chapter beginning until the end of the chapters. every chapters of the book compiled to tell the story of your life and each chapter tells you a story at a period of your life. To me, poly life had come to an end and is part of the chapter in the book of life. More of the happiness and memories are yet to come although it seems that I had already all the best of memories in my life that had already happenned.
posted in 20 july 2004

Anonymous scribbled this at 11:30 AM...

Dip in Molecular Biotechnology (HUh? What biotech? Mole wat? )Haiz, 4get it , it is biotech. yeah yeah.

Anonymous scribbled this at 11:26 AM...

The Graduation 2oo4 (Picture With courtesy of NAnyang Polytechnic)

Anonymous scribbled this at 11:23 AM...

Armed with our diploma, you can select a career of your choice from amongst a whole spectrum of employment opportunities in the Life Sciences.For those of you with a passion for research, the various research institutes/centers, hospitals and laboratories offer attractive job opportunities to support their challenging R&D projects. Pharmaceutical, biotechnology and medical device/equipment companies are also looking for Polytechnic graduates to join them in product research, development and manufacturing. Graduates with strong interpersonal skills and an inclination for marketing will also be much sought after by leading pharmaceutical, biotechnology and medical device/equipment companies to support their sales and marketing functions.

Anonymous scribbled this at 11:21 AM...

This 3rd of August is my graduation ceremony from Nanyang Polytechnic, what will I be taking home is a piece of Certificate namely " Diploma in Molecular Biotechnology". I may ask myself, what will this cert will do for me in the future, will I be heading to different industry and this cert is just a piece of paper that will be kept in my shelve for collection for collecting dust? or will be a passport open to many exciting features of work of life sciences in singapore, which is currently been promoted fiercely like a hot cake, an exciting career bundled will lots of employee's attactive remuneration package, advancement benefits and most importantly an fulfilling career? or will it be the gateway to many established university overseas leading to an recognized degree? Where will I be going? OR rather? HAve I have many choices of where I will be going? What is my likes ? I don't know. I rather take one step at a time. Life is too short and unexpectance for long term planning.

3 years is NYP. 5 years in NAnhua secondary. 6 years in Jin shan primary. 2 years in kindergarden . Preschool(dun know)? All these are well-lit path that i had traveled down. I missed those days .All lots of it. How I wished so many times that if I have a wish, it will be going back to childhood years, doing the things again but this time better. Now I am 21, and not gratefully to declare I am an adult. The journey has been more complicated . Who am I? What is the meaning of my life? What makes me happy? Things that seemed so clear at one time are now hazy and confusing.

Anonymous scribbled this at 11:19 AM...

Let's start this beautiful journey

Anonymous scribbled this at 11:15 AM...

WHo am I ?
Ans : I am I , Me am I .I am me .me is me. WHo am I, I am who .....I Am anonymous . I am a dreamer. Anonymous dreamer. Another XX chomosome species (maybe a XY) in this world . Mutated.

This is my latest blog. ...yeah , this blog? For u, especially for my friends, who ever they are... This is much angelic one. Give a clean start from my previous ones. I did not make changes to the template in HTML for this, well , lets see if I have the time........ My devil's blog make used of my utimate HTML skill and I loved the template that I had created (oh, too bad , u can't see) Why blog? bor liao, there is no better way to kill the time in this unemployment stage of my life(I am loving it). It's a trend. I am a 'trend-victim' in IT, but at least I can do some simple task in IT like setting up a blog and get in touch of this ever changing world. (yaya, This blog is lousy and "nothing to see" I know)Don't expect to see naked pic or any sensational things ....Currently learning to master HTML... blog allows upload as much pics u wan, describe it , express yr views, bitch abt it, Criticize it, praise abt it , nobody will care...(but will get sue? ) Nothing can be more detailed, infomative way, yet economic way to update a person's whereabouts, his/her character and attitude towards their lives (as though u care ya?). Created tis blog so to degrade your Standard of expressive english. So beware, entering my blog in the risk of brain-wash yr PreFFecct language learnt in yr school dazes --Meet the standard of mine! Bloggy is me, me is bloggy. Reference to me, dun ask me, look my bloggy.

Some of my friendz have their blog been laugh at (rock off from computer and injured their poor spinal), some is much "poetry " and "deep" ones that will lead people to much cracking of their poor brain cells in one whole day in figuring out what it is saying, reminding of their dreadful sec school literature days. etc etc...To me, blog is really a dead give away of a person's unique-ness in the way that is interesting and dramatic.

My facade, envision , past , present, future, my egoism , possessive !People may manipulate and steal your image, your behaviour, your words of saying, influence your right or wrong by fitting their brainless and unconsiderate uncivilised words into your mouth, seeing so artificially ,superficially that they don't know your deepest hiding soul, then it adduct yr soul and finally adulterate your personally to let your words of pureness seem to covered by untruly lies. What u do?You kEpt your mOUtH SHUT and become one of the forgotten slaves in this society. But, this bloggy is mine , no one steal from it.

Anonymous scribbled this at 10:51 AM...